Liberty and Economics

Cheating Wife

This guy finds out his wife is cheating on him with the best man from his wedding.

This is why you should never get married.

Love is Bullshit Revisited

Love is bullshit. Folks, you have no idea how much I wish that wasn't true. But it is true.

A few months ago, I met someone who started to change my mind on this. I don't know why she liked me so much. But love is fickle. She stopped loving me about as abruptly as she started. I blamed her. Then, I blamed myself. But at the end of the day, love is bullshit.

I knew it would end this way. It happened exactly as I predicted it would. She met me one day and loved me. Then, she woke up one day and didn't. It was like turning on a faucet and then turning it back off.

The mistake I made was allowing myself to have feelings for her. This is why it hurts now. I should have dumped her the moment I started caring about her. I failed to follow my own advice, and now, I am paying for it.

I will never hurt you. What a lie. Why do I fall for this shit time and time again? Why can't I wake the fuck up?

I'm not blaming myself for the end of this relationship. That's all on her. I blame myself for letting myself believe in this shit for the umpteenth time. It is my own damn fault for being a sucker in the oldest con going.

I hate women. They are disposable pleasures and nothing more. I need to join my scoundrel brethren and use them and toss them like the garbage they are. That's how women have done me. Why not pay them back in kind?

I am judged for being hostile to marriage. I am condemned for my cynicism on all things on love. But I am right. I have never ceased being right. Love is just like religion. It is the belief in things we wish were true but simply aren't.

There is no contact between love and happiness. I have never found happiness in love. Love is antithetical to happiness. Happiness is the pleasure of a rational mind pursuing purposeful activity. Love is the product of natural urges to fuck and continue the species. Love is primitive and mindless. That's why people in love are such suckers.

Naturally, I got the "friend" thing and the "I love you, but I'm not in love with you" bullshit. I already wrote about this in my post on ambiguous terminology. All of this is Lifetime Channel bullshit, so women can cleanse their guilty consciences. They come out smelling like a rose while you are slime. Fuck that. Women are the slime.

I'm not doing this love shit anymore. I am done. I've always been happier after a relationship than during it. This will be no different. This chick began by reaming my ass over being unable to commit to marriage. Then, she dumped me right about the time she changed her hairstyle. That's how long she loved me. One hairstyle which was about three months. And women wonder why I can't commit.

When you fall out of love, it hurts. It turns to hatred and then nausea. Foolishly, you will grasp at any hope of salvaging the relationship like a drunk returning to an empty wine bottle hoping for one last sip. But there is nothing there. It is over with.

I have been a fucking chump, a goddamn fool. I really let myself down with this shit. Never again. I'm not listening to these foolish bitches ever again. I root for the players and the cheating husbands and the womanizers. They treat women the way they deserve to be treated. Disagree? Women still keep lining up to get fucked over. They love and respect these slimebags and put out for them like the wanton whores that they are. As they say, don't hate the player. Hate the game.

Love is a vain and empty pursuit. Women are liars. They are all the same. This chick was going to change my mind about love. She did. She made me more cynical and bitter than I was before. She snuffed out the last glowing ember of hope that I ever had on this shit. I will always hate her.


Good Intentions

This was written on Saturday, but I relented on publishing it. My girlfriend dumped me today while I was out of town like the coward she is. So, here it is.

Thursday and Friday were good days all things considered. Today is Saturday, and it has been a bad day for me.

I do not know where to begin with this. So, here's a little quotation to set the mood:

I think I'm falling in love with you, Mr. Broadway! As scary as it may seem, I will never hurt you. You just have to trust me as much as I trust you.

The first time I read those words I knew they would turn out to be untrue. Women make sweeping statements like these, and they seem so grand and well-intentioned. You want to believe them. But experience tells you it will never be like that.

Women are without virtue. Aristotle said this. It is because women are without reason which is the essential component of virtue. Women are feelings and emotions and nothing more. Their words count for nothing because they will be forgotten as soon as their mood changes. Women are never satisfied. They are needy and confused and essentially stupid. Consequently, women can never be happy. These are points that Aristotle made, so get mad at him. I'm just agreeing with the cat.

I'm hurting right now. When I start quoting the Greeks, you can rest assured that I'm going through some shit. I don't get mad over stuff. I get a little pissed then I turn to reflection. This is how I cope.

I have allowed myself to care for a woman. This was a mistake. I cared for her because I wanted to believe a lie. What was this lie? This one is different.

They are not different. All women are the same. I even know what they will say when they plunge the dagger in your heart. "I never intended to hurt you." As soon as women start talking about intentions, that's when I know they are fixing to fuck me over.

Good intentions can never cover a bad act. The reality is that no one ever intends to do the shit they do. But it just happens that way, doesn't it? I laugh when a woman tells me she never intended to hurt me as if that will somehow make it better. It doesn't.

Words mean things. Women don't get that. I get castigated for being "marriage phobic," but that is because I actually believe in marriage. I just don't believe there is a woman on this planet worth marrying. They will cheat on you, take your money, and get every drop out of you in the divorce. Then, they will justify it all by talking about their "intentions."

What women don't understand is that an intention requires forethought and follow through. You actually have to say what you mean and mean what you say. This requires integrity and honesty. Women are without either. To be honest requires a belief in objective truth and to be consistent with that truth. Women are too emotional to do this.


Needless to say, folks, my girlfriend stuck it to me today just like I knew she would. Women lie. That's all they know to do. Love is bullshit. Don't ever forget this. I'll have more on this when I get back home.

The Dark Emotions

It has come to my attention recently that I am a really neurotic motherfucker. I'm in Woody Allen territory. It is usually a passing phase when bad shit happens to me, but I have noticed that I am predisposed to a certain level of negative thinking. Now, I'm not going to go Tony Robbins on you because that guy is full of shit. But I do want to deal with some common negative emotions and their antidotes.

John Maynard Keynes once famously quipped that in the long run, we're all dead. I disagree with Keynes on a lot of stuff, but he got that one absolutely right.

The certainty of death makes fear very illogical. Worrying about things will not change them. In addition, if you're wondering if shit will happen, it will. Sooner or later, your luck runs out. It is unavoidable. So, live with it.

Death does not scare me. The pain preceding death causes me a certain amount of concern. But death itself is painless. It will be like the void before we were born. You have to exist to experience something, and death is non-existence.

My great fear is being unemployed, but I've already been through that enough to know a few things. Save your money and have faith in the market. There is no end to work, so there is always a job out there. If you don't have a job, then you're not looking hard enough to get one.

My other great fear is being incarcerated. I don't go around breaking laws, but I have read enough to know that you don't have to break the law to get locked up. Sometimes, all it takes is being the wrong color in the wrong neighborhood or not knowing every jot and tittle in the reams of government regulations that exist. But that's why I work against tyranny in my life and keep a clean conscience. I know right from wrong. I don't steal or hurt other people. If they take my freedom, all I can do is be free within myself. They can lock me up, but they can never shut me up. That's why this blog exists so that I can say the things I want to say.

I have a minor fear, and that is the fear of being cheated on by a girlfriend. Odds are it will happen and probably has happened. What can I say? All you can do is be faithful and dump the unfaithful. The fact is that there are always going to be people who you love and trust who will turn around and betray you. The bottom line is that you can't find happiness in other people. You have to find happiness inside of yourself.

We hate those who have betrayed us, but there isn't much point in it. I think anger is a proper response when people fuck us over. But to dwell on it beyond a certain point is to give in to hatred which causes more harm than the initial transgression. The best thing to do is let that shit go. I've gotten pretty good at this thing. I never enact revenge upon those who have transgressed against me. Of course, that doesn't mean they'll be getting Christmas cards from me either. Most of the time, I simply forget about it and move on.

Another form of hatred I have never understood is collective hatred. I am thinking of racism or homophobia or what have you. Of course, I must admit to hating women as a class of beings. But this collective hatred is nonsensical. The fact is that there are scumbags and saints in any group you care to name. That is because people are individuals. Ignorant people can't deal with people on an individual basis because it requires more computational power than their feeble minds can muster. So, they simply decide to hate all black people or all Mexicans or what have you because it simplifies things.

For me, the big issue is sexism. The reality is that I want to class women as a group to better understand them and perhaps have sex with them as a result. Naturally, I am frustrated which leads to anger which leads to hatred. This is not good. The bottom line is that all women are different. This is what makes them so hard to figure out.

We all get sad from time to time. I get sad when someone I love dies or when a relationship ends or what have you. We wouldn't be human if we never experienced sadness from time to time. But depression is another story altogether.

I have struggled to try and define depression. Someone once said that depression was anger without enthusiasm. There may be some truth to that, but I think depression is a belief that happiness is impossible. But if you know one happy person, then you realize that depression makes no sense. And if you've ever been happy, then you know you can be happy again.

It gets tough to hang on sometime, but so far, I have seen the dawn cut through the gloom every single time. The best advice I can give for someone going through some dark times is to stay busy. As Bear Grylls pointed out on Man Vs. Wild, it is better to make wrong decisions than to make no decisions. Keep moving. It is when you give over to despondency that you die.

There you have it for the dark emotions. I don't know if it makes you feel better reading this shit, but it definitely makes me feel better to write it.

DVD-Smokin' Aces

About the only good thing I can say about this flick is that Alicia Keys is smoking hot in it. Other than that, this movie fails.

Smokin' Aces crams everything into it. It has an all-star cast. It has witty dialogue. It has a lot of action, violence, sex, and gore. The plot is ambitious. The characters are out of this world. Yet, it is because of this that the movie fails.

I suspect that Smokin' Aces was an American attempt at making a movie like Snatch or Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels. But those movies fail for the same reasons. It is too much to take in.

Aristotle had a dictum that a story had to have a beginning, a middle, and an end. That may seem elementary, but that structure has proved to be the most satisfying for audiences for millennia. It is why Billy Shakespeare continues to enthrall audiences to this day.

Smokin' Aces is a caper film about a host of contract killers going after some slimebag weasel. You never get involed with the story because it moves too fast and has too many pieces in it. It's like they threw in everything but the kitchen sink. I think this can be done if you're making an epic, but you're not going to pull it off in a 2 hour timespan.

Watching Smokin' Aces is like having sex with a tranny. There is more equipment on the playing field than is necessary. I give it a thumbs down.

Daydreams, Reflection, and Action

It is fun to daydream. You can fantasize about all sorts of things. You can come up with all kinds of new ideas or wishes. The problem with all of these wishes comes when we have to fulfill them. It is then that we face the hard work of turning dreams into reality.

As Peter Drucker put it, "Plans are only good intentions unless they immediately degenerate into hard work." Our lives are filled with good intentions. In our fantasy lives, everything is perfect. There is no adversity. Everything is a success easily gained. But we know this is bullshit.

Then, there is the flip side. You put forth a lot of action. You bust your ass. You reach for the elusive prize. And once you have it in hand, you realize there really was nothing to it at all. You experience the anticlimax. Hell, it can even be a bit depressing. I discovered this when I finished college or got my first decent paying job. There really is no thrill in the conquest. Maybe others will disagree with me, but I find that winning is not nearly as much fun as just playing. If you've ever blown someone out on a competition, you will know what I am talking about.

I don't like to daydream. I just like to work. I like to create and make things and get things done. I make a lot of plans and even keep them in a black notebook along with my reading list, addresses, etc. I will never accomplish all the things I have written in that book. But I like to have options in case one plan fails I can resort to another project instead of becoming despondent.

I also don't like to spend a lot of time reflecting over what I have done. For instance, I rarely read my own blog. Most of the time, I catch mistakes and correct them, but I don't get much satisfaction from something I have already written. I'm happiest usually in the process of writing something.

I like to live in this zone of action. I like to follow the principle A.B.D.--Always Be Doing. Usually, that doing is nothing more than goofing off which is anything that doesn't involved getting paid or tending to household affairs. I just like to zone in on some project and then make it happen. When the project ends, I am a little bit sad that it is over with. So, I reload another project and start working again.

I've said this before, and I'm saying it again. Happiness is always having something to do. It isn't about money or love or any of that shit. Happiness is losing yourself in purposeful activity. If you focus on money or success or the "prize," you will find yourself utterly miserable. Usually, these things come to the people who simply do what they love doing.

Lately, I have forgotten this lesson. That is why happiness is so frustrating. We forget what it is that makes us happy, so we have to remember. There is no happiness in daydreaming or in reflection. There is only happiness in action. Always Be Doing.


One time, I had a job interview where the guy asked questions from a stock list asked of all applicants. One of the questions asked what would I do if I had three or four things to do and needed to be completed at the same time. I answered that I would prioritize and do the most pressing thing first and work my way to the next important, etc. This was the wrong answer.

The right answer was that I would do them all at the same time. Looking back, I realize that the right answer was also the stupid answer. But that is Corporate America for you.

I have been multitasking for a long time, and I can tell you that it doesn't work. Invariably, when I do two things at a time, I do both so badly that I usually end up doing it all over again. I have also found that if one item takes 10 minutes to do and another takes 10 minutes by combining them I end up spending 30 minutes on them total. This is not time saved. It is time wasted.

Another bad habit is talking on the cellphone while driving. I either have issues with traffic, or I barely hear the conversation. Because I wouldn't take the time to actually pull over and talk to someone, I have lost information or gotten the wrong information. Whatever time I thought I was saving I wasn't.

The bottom line is that you can only concentrate on one thing at a time. That is why it is called "concentration." It reminds me of the shitheaded exec who told his employees that there were 25 things he wanted them to focus on. Needless to say, they weren't able to focus.

Do one thing at a time, and do it well. You will improve quality and save time.

A Critical Evaluation of the Top Tier

Regular readers of the blog here will notice that I enthusiastically support Ron Paul for President. I also temper that support with the knowledge that the electorate is too fucking stupid to elect a principled guy like Dr. Paul. I despise when people complain about crooks and liars getting into office, yet these are the people they vote for. Honest people can't make it in politics because the American people are fucking retarded with shit for brains. They get the government they deserve--good and hard deep in their bleeding asses. But I digress. . .

Here is my critical evaluation of the "top tier" of candidates. These are the slimy fucks with the most money and the highest likelihood of winning.


I despise this cunt. With Hillary, we'll get nagged into a nanny welfare state. And she will be a hawk on the war because everyone thinks she'll be weak on defense because she's a chick. Instead, she'll be a real bitch.


He's just a polished version of Al Sharpton. He plays white, so he'll get some of the white vote. But a black man can't win the oval office in the USA. I don't have a problem with his race, but he does not represent my viewpoints at all. He'd be like Hillary on all the issues. OTOH, if he came out strong against the war, he'd get my vote.


This guy is barely top tier. He could win the general election, but he won't get there.


He's not a candidate, but like Fred Thompson, he's running. He's biding his time to consider a strategy. Then, he will run and win the Democratic nomination. I despise this fucker almost as much as Hillary. But he might be the one to end the war.


This guy is absolute slime. He will say anything to get elected. He is the GOP version of Bill Clinton.


Rudy is an Italian fascist. This country would become a civil liberties nightmare under his watch.


McCain isn't much different than Giuliani except that he learned his lesson from the last presaidential campaign and has pressed his lips firmly to the ass of the Religious Right. Throw in ardent support for the war, and he stands no chance of winning the nomination. This is rather ironic considering how much he has sold out. But I think he sacrificed some self-respect in the process.


This guy will probably win it all. I don't agree with Thompson on a lot of shit, but I suspect he is a political realist. He will support the war, but he'll pull us out after he gets elected. He is the least of all evils, and he'll probably get my vote in the general election. I always go with the one who is most likely to cut taxes.

The wild card in this race is NYC Mayor Mike Bloomberg. He has the money to run an independent campaign. He is also nauseating as fuck with his nanny state bullshit. Who will he hurt most? That is the question. If Fred Thompson wins the GOP nomination, I think Bloomberg will hurt the Democrats. But I don't know.

Go Ron Paul.

Ron Paul-CNN Debate 6/5/07

PRINT-Casino Royale by Ian Fleming

After seeing the latest James Bond movie, I became very interested in reading the Bond novels that Ian Fleming wrote. Fleming's Bond is way different than the one seen in the movies. Daniel Craig's version comes closest to the spirit of the character that Fleming envisioned which is a man with a certain amount of ambivalence and roughness.

Casino Royale reads like a noir thriller. It is gritty and dark. Bond does not always prevail, and he has his doubts about his profession and his "friends." Like the movie, Bond must gamble to accomplish the financial ruin of a black market banker named Le Chiffre through the gaming tables at the Casino Royale. Things get ugly from there, and Bond is simultaneously rescued and betrayed.

Most people are not familiar with this Bond. They have grown accustomed to the cartoon of the movies. But you will like this Bond a lot more. I highly recommend this book for your summer reading.

Junior, Say It Ain't So

Dale Earnhardt, Jr. announced yesterday that he was going to race for Hendrick Motorsports. This will piss off a lot of Earnhardt fans who have undying hatred for Jeff Gordon.

Junior wants to win. Hendrick has the best equipment. That is the bottom line. Money wasn't even an issue.

In related news, Kyle Busch is leaving Hendrick to make room for Earnhardt. Why did they let Kyle go instead of Casey Mears? That's easy. Kyle is a fucking punk like his fuckhead older brother Kurt. I guarantee you there were many times when Hendrick wanted to punch that prick in the face.

There are a lot of details to tend to with this deal, but if Earnhardt can't win with Hendrick, he can't win at all. That's all there is to it.

Poetic Interlude 4

by D.H. Lawrence

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.

Academy of Driving

Blatant Racial Discrimination

Pocono 500

The race got rained out, so they gave the victory to Jeff Gordon. This was not a satisfying conclusion to a race, but what are you gonna do?

I hate to say this, but it seems Jeff Gordon is destined to win the championship this year. Those guys at Hendrick Motorsports have their shit together.

On another topic, I find it amazing that Mark Martin is number 12 in the Chase. I really wish the guy had not opted for semi-retirement. He is undoubtedly the most consistent driver in the history of NASCAR. He can drive a different car for a different team and still be a force to be reckoned with. He is an amazing driver.

Artistic Interlude

SORAYAMA, unknown

The Invincible Summer

In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me lay an invincible summer.

I was pretty depressed yesterday, but I've got my head screwed on right today. I think I have to give up in order to come back stronger. Like Camus, I have discovered my invincible summer.

I don't know why darkness and despair come over me like it does. I fight it as hard as I can until I am give out. Then, I give up. In the process of giving up, I find new strength and new hope to carry on. Usually, it involves a new strategy or a new way of looking at things.

I think it helps to step back from the struggle and see it in a new light. I am amazed how much a little bit of fun and a good night's sleep can change your mood and even your view of life. I think things will get better for me because I want to try some new things. So, I'm back from the brink again. Undoubtedly, I will find myself in the downward spiral again, but there is hope even at the bottom.

The Downward Spiral Revisited

kinda like a cloud i was up way up in the sky and i was feeling some
you wouldn't believe sometimes i don't believe them myself and i
decided i was
never coming down. just then a tiny little dot caught my eye it was
just about
too small to see. but i watched it way too long and that dot was
pulling me
i was up above it.
i was up above it.
now i'm down in it

--Nine Inch Nails, "Down In It"

My brother told me a story about how he used to get upset by people lying to him or screwing him over. He would get mad and show his ass. But maturity and experience has made my brother a bit more philosophical such that he not only continues to get fucked over, but he has come to expect it. It doesn't even faze him now.

People are slime. I hate to give into that misanthropy, but as someone pointed out, Original Sin is the only bit of Christian theology that is backed up by empirical data. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't anticipate getting what a friend of mine calls "the long dick." What makes that phrase so humorous is the resignation to getting fucked over and merely describing the length of the shaft. Getting the short dick is a good day.

Like my brother, I accept that I am going to get fucked over. People make promises to me all the time, and I know those promises are empty. I know they are lying to me even as they tell me the lies.

There was a time not too long ago that I reached the absolute lowest point in my life. I got out of that mire of despair by choosing to believe in something. I could not choose to believe in optimism because optimism is a lie. Though it might make you feel better, optimism is self-deception. It is not an accurate view of reality. I'd rather have the bleak truth than a sunny lie.

I chose to believe in what I called "Balanced Thinking." In other words, things are neither as good nor as bad as they can possibly be but hit a sort of middle ground. For instance, in the long run, we're dead, but we are alive now. I'm not rich like Bill Gates, but I have things that Queen Victoria could only dream of.

I chose to believe in things like the free market, freedom, individualism, and the possibility of happiness. I realized that it was OK to pursue one's own self-interest and to not feel guilty about it. And I quit judging people for being selfish because self-interest is necessary and even moral.

What makes people good or bad isn't the presence or absence of self-interest but their rationality. Selfishness is a given. All people pursue their own happiness. To give an example, some shitheads claimed that the heroes of Flight 93 on 9/11 were trying to save the White House and "the country." This is utter nonsense. The people on board 93 were trying to save their own asses, and I see nothing immoral about it. That is the folly of our times that an act loses its legitimacy because it was done out of self-preservation rather than self-sacrifice. But I digress. . .

I'm just sick of people's lies. I'm tired of their lack of honor. I'm exhausted with their hypocrisy. Ironically, these are the people who preach the most about "duty" and "sacrifice." It is absolutely nauseating. I know a man who professes to be a Christian and even had as his job the duty to police the honesty and integrity of other people. But when the shit came down, he lied through his teeth to cover his own ass. He was no better than any heathen motherfucker he would condemn for their iniquity. Jesus wept.

I am a scoundrel. I say this because I don't want people thinking I am a great guy. A good reputation can only lead to profound disappointment. I figure if you think I'm a slimebag I won't ever let you down. I may even surprise you once in awhile. In short, it is a way of underpromising and overdelivering.

But most people aren't like me. It reminds me of that anti-semitic joke. How does a Jew say fuck you? TRUST ME. The reality is that remark can be applied to almost anyone.

I have a dim view of humanity. I want to believe that people can be trusted. The reality is that I have done better not relying on people. Even the people who help me do so only to preach at me and try to run my life for me.

People only care about you to the extent that you do something for them. That may be a cold remark, but it is a true one. The sympathy and compassion of others is short. People will claim to care about you, but they say these things to assuage their own consciences. It is mere sentiment and nothing more. In the long run, you will be forgotten. If you don't believe this, think of all the neglected people in nursing homes in this country. They are warehoused by families who literally don't give a fuck.

People are going to fuck you. That's just the way it is. Consequently, your happiness is always in peril. You can't start a business without some bureaucrat wanting to shut you down, the taxman wanting to tax you into poverty, or some fuckhead trying to sue your ass into oblivion. You can spend a lifetime trying to cultivate a reputation of integrity, but there will always be somebody shameless and vindictive enough to lie about you.

This misanthropy leads to coldness and remoteness. I find it hard to trust people. I think of Scooter Libby who will go to prison for protecting the President of the United States. Libby probably deserves this. From a political point of view, I applaud his conviction. From a personal viewpoint, I am nauseated by George Bush who will not pardon Libby because it might make him look bad in the eyes of the media or the historians. Basically, Bush gave Libby the long dick. I know it, and the rest of the country knows it. This is where loyalty gets you. You get fucked without the courtesy of a reacharound.

This is a bitter pill to swallow, but I am being as honest as I can be here. It is this dark nature of humanity that keeps me from marrying. Right now, I regularly get chastised and lectured to by my current significant other about my marriage phobia. Yet, right now, I worry that she is sleeping in another man's arms as I type this.

Infidelity is the norm. This is why I will never get married. I've never cheated on a girlfriend, and I never will. But I've seen enough to know that you are an idiot to ever trust a woman. Love is bullshit. I don't believe in it. By not getting married, I can end the relationship as easily as it began. It's not that I don't want to be happily married. I do. I want it the same way I want to go heaven when I die. But I know that heaven does not exist. Neither does wedded bliss.

People are what keep me going in life, but people have let me down so much that I can't stand the hurt of it anymore. I have grown numb to it all. I don't care anymore. I am giving over to the darkness. There's no point in fighting it anymore. I spend my time trying to convince myself of something I know isn't true. If it were true, it wouldn't take so much effort.

The human race isn't worth a damn. That is the bottom line. I trust people not because I want to. I trust people because I have to. I trust that the grill man at McDonald's isn't squirting some special sauce on my burger. But many of us have eaten cum unawares. Recent food contamination is almost certainly due to people not giving a fuck that pets or people will die as a result of their dishonesty. Yet, I keep buying groceries because I have to eat.

I trust people out of necessity. I wish I didn't have to. But the world is full of liars, crooks, and thieves. Look no further than the halls of Congress to see this. It is what P.J. O'Rourke called "a parliament of whores." Yet, the American people elect these crooks because the people themselves are crooked looking for a handout or whatnot. We are a nation of parasites looking to live at the expense of others.

I am not a man of faith, but there are still a few things I like to cling to that keep me hanging around in this world. The first is that it is possible to be happy in this world. The second is that there are people in this world that care about you. But I don't believe in these things anymore. They are illusions. They are the lies I tell myself to stay alive. I no longer believe those lies.

I'm taking a sabbatical from the blog for awhile. I'm simply too depressed to keep it up anymore. I have given over. I don't have the fight in me anymore.

Jazmin Badillo

"The Tyger"
By William Blake

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare sieze the fire?

And what shoulder, & what art.
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand? & what dread feet?

What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? what dread grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

When the stars threw down their spears,
And watered heaven with their tears,
Did he smile his work to see?
Did he who made the Lamb make thee?

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

PRINT-The End of Faith by Sam Harris

The End of Faith by Sam Harris is one of the books that came out recently that has sparked a more militant atheism. I am an atheist, so I agree with Sam Harris on that point. What Harris has done with Faith is condemn religion wholesale as a cancer on civilization and argues passionately that it needs to end. The detente between atheism and religion has led to accomodations that Harris says should never have been made. For instance, the religious reasons behind the 9/11 plot were glossed over by both Muslim moderates, Christian fundamentalists, and left leaning liberals. Harris condemns this accomodation.

I disagree with Harris on things such as his buddhist leanings which he tries to tackle from a scientific viewpoint, but I think is utter horseshit. Meditation may have certain beneficial aspects, but I think most people will find they get the same thing from taking a 30-minute nap. Then, there is Harris's call for one world government. I also detect the whiffs of a neocon foreign policy.

It doesn't take much to realize that Harris is a big government left leaning liberal. Where he differs from other liberals is that he refuses to tolerate religion. Somewhere, Harris and I diverge. I am an atheist, and I support stem cell research. I just oppose government funding of stem cell research. Harris supports government funding but argues that religious viewpoints should be expunged from public debate simply because they are ludicrous.

It is very difficult for me to go along with Harris on this stuff. I can appreciate the work of Richard Dawkins alot more because Dawkins downplays his political views to make the larger cultural point. Harris goes for the political jugular.

This is where I bring Nietzsche into the picture. Nietzsche argues that everything revolves around the will to power. Right and wrong are merely assertions of the will to power. Consequently, everything is justified for the sake of the cause. The political left has embraced this philosophy which is why you have groups like the NAACP, NOW, etc. pushing for their collective vision of narrowly defined rights. For instance, gay marriage is less about marriage than it is about rubbing people's noses in it. I think gays should have the right to marry, but I would argue that government should get out of the marriage business. I argue for freedom. The gay movement would rather keep the government control over it but direct it in a manner they see fit. By legalizing gay marriage, it forces everyone else--employers, insurance companies, etc.--to recognize homosexual unions. It is all about force.

Harris takes the same tack. Atheism should be brought about by force. Harris will probably disagree with my interpretation of his viewpoint, but that is because it is the right interpretation. Harris sees teaching evolution in public schools as being common sense. I see it as indoctrination. Though I believe in evolution, I prefer persuasion in the cultural arena as opposed to force in the political arena.

I am all for the cultural fight for atheism, but I am not for the political fight beyond opposing the religionist tyranny. The reason Christian fundamentalists became so militant in America was a direct result of the political actions of the left wing. They unwittingly adopted the Nietzschean worldview of the will to power in response to being forced to accept worldviews they disagree with.

As a libertarian, I reject the will to power. It doesn't take much to realize that this thinking is behind the current neo-conservative foreign policy of the Bush administration. This shit is utter madness. The Harris thesis is that the will to power should be wedded to atheism. Harris would disagree, but Sam Harris is not a libertarian.

I agree with Sam Harris on his cultural points. Christianity and Islam are fucked up no matter how benign they might be. I agree that the world would be a better place without religion, but it would only be slightly better. The fact is that dogma of all varieties whether it is the nationalism of Nazi Germany or the tyrannical impulse of communism and socialism or what have you ia the culprit.

Society depends upon a common definition of human rights and respect for those rights. Those rights are the rights to life, liberty, and property. That means that religious nutcases have the right to believe what they want and should be left alone to follow the dictates of their religion. Likewise, I am an atheist and a debauched hedonist who wants to be free to do as I please as well. Can the two coexist peacefully? I think they can.

Force applied to any ideology is tyranny. I don't think Sam Harris grasps that. But I recommend reading his book. He makes very good points about the madness and stupidity of religious thinking. I just can't go along with the will to power thing.

Artistic Interlude



I know this is a weird title for a post, but it is a lame attempt at humor over a very serious topic--education in America.

This is a very broad topic for me. I'm not even sure how to tackle it except to break it down into chunks. (I suspect this would make a great book, but I don't know if I should be writing it.)

If there is a central thesis to my views on education it is this. Education is free. I don't mean free in the publicly funded sense. I mean free as in getting a library card and reading and learning whatever it is you please.

Technically, this education is not free. Someone has to pay for it. But never in history has knowledge been so cheap and so available. Thanks to libraries, bookstores, and the internet, you can learn just about anything you want. About the only thing that is prohibitive is learning how to operate expensive equipment or other hands on endeavors. For instance, I'd like to learn how to fly a plane, but that will take some cheddar which I don't currently have.

But when it comes to science, mathematics, history, economics, literature, or what have you, you can learn anything you want. I discovered this when one of my college professors remarked that a college education is free. All you need is a library card. I ran with this idea and supplemented my education with additional reading. I daresay I have learned more out of school than in it.

So, what is the value of a college education? Recognition. That's about it. You will get a piece of paper that says that you studied something and received a grade for it. I don't think I learned anything in school that I couldn't have learned on my own. I will go the next step and say that everything we learn is self-taught. The value of an instructor is merely as a guide and a safety net.

The dangerous idea about education is the monopolization of learning and the idea that learning ends when school is done. I am a big believer in continuing education and supplemental education. You should never stop learning new information and new skills. Yet, people seem to think that education can only happen in a classroom.

Homeschooling is an excellent example of what I am getting at. When the homeschooling movement began in earnest, it was thought of as a joke and the backward workings of religious fundamentalists. The joke ended when those homeschooled kids started winning spelling bees and going to Harvard. Nowadays, even nonreligious folks see the value of homeschooling.

The public schools are broken. Public school kids do worse on basic skills than kids from foreign countries. I used to believe that the way to fix public schools was more rigorous testing, uniforms, and year round schooling with a half day on Saturday. Now, I reject this paternalism. I think the public schools should be abolished. Let parents and kids decide what is best for their children's education. The homeschool movement shows what happens when parents wise up and pull their kids from public schools.

It is the nature of stupid Americans to think that if the government doesn't do it that it won't get done at all. But this is simply bullshit. That is why Americans continue to pour tax dollars into the sham of public education. Trust me on this, folks. America's kids would be better off without public schools. They aren't learning shit now, so why not save that money?

The reality is that the free market will provide because it already has. The learning is there for the taking. Between TV, DVDs, the library, and the internet, you can get all the learning you could ever want. There are already curriculums for homeschooling. The rich will probably elect to send their kids to private schools or have tutors for their kids. This will chap the asses of leftist egalitarians, but I hate to tell them this divide already exists. But it is not because of a lack of opportunity. It is a lack of initiative upon the part of the poor which explains why they are poor. Public schools haven't changed this and won't ever change this. The rich already pull their kids out of bad schools either by moving or buying private schooling.

Another thing that needs to end is government funding of higher education. Colleges and universities shouldn't get a dime of taxpayer funds. Consider Joe Blow who busts his ass to subsidize the education of Johnny, a rich kid who goes to State U., binge drinks, bangs co-ed beaver, and never goes to class. Meanwhile, we have a glut of college grads but a critical shortage of brick masons and welders.

The reason we have government education is primarily for the means of indoctrination. Everyone wants to push an agenda, and they use government schools to do it. This is why atheists and Christians fight back and forth over prayer, the ten commandments, sex ed, and evolution. In addition, the teaching of history is skewed in favor of the government propaganda. For instance, as a schoolkid I was a big admirer of Lincoln and FDR. I despise both of them now as proto-dictators. Why did I use to admire them? Textbooks and teachers. Hell, I even used to think Woodrow Wilson was a great guy, and the world needed the UN to run it.

The other aspect of public schools is the fact that shitty teachers can't be fired. They are owned by the teacher's unions who protect their turf with byzantine certification requirements and threats of lawsuits and strikes. I remember having two teachers in my public school days who drank on the job and didn't even bother teaching. Ironically, I still learned and probably learned it better because I taught myself. I would indulge my own curiosities by going to the library which is a practice I continue to the present day.

Another thing that has interested me recently is the Montessori schools and theory. It seems to reflect my own thinking that we teach ourselves. I'll probably read up more on this, but studies indicate that Montessori kids do better on standardized testing than their public school peers.

In conclusion, it is time to liberate education from the government monopoly. You can learn anything you want. No one is stopping you. Whether you receive recognition for that learning is another matter. Education and ideas about it need to change.

By Percy Bysshe Shelley

I met a traveller from an antique land,
Who said--"Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert....Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed;
And on the pedestal, these words appear:
My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings,
Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away."


There is a mystical force in the universe. This force robs you of wealth, health, and security. Like the gravity of a black hole, it sucks the productivity from your days. Time is frittered away. You know this force is destructive, but you are unable to escape it. This force is better known as SLACK.

Slack is simply laziness. Throw in procrastination, and there you have it. Slack is nothing more than inaction. It is not doing what needs to be done. In short, it is an escape from work. It is inactivity or half assing stuff. I know of no one who has not succumbed to slack at some point in their lives.

Slack is not a good thing. So, why do we have it? The answer to that is elementary. All you have to do is look at nature to realize that the vast majority of creatures including ourselves likes to sleep. Scientists debate the purpose of sleep, and I must admit that it has mystified me. Why did so many animals evolve to do something that makes them vulnerable and puts them at jeopardy? Some say it has to do with rewiring synapses in the brain. But the best answer I have heard is that it has to do with conserving energy.

The theory goes that the reason sleep evolved is because it makes survival sense. When an animal sleeps, he burns less energy. Animals tend to either forage for food, reproduce, or sleep. Herbivores sleep less than carnivores. That is because they must eat more to get their energy needs met. Lions, bears, and other animals spend a lot of time snoozing. They eat and do nothing all day long. This is the economy of nature. It does not waste energy on the unnecessary. Once their caloric needs are met, animals sleep. That is the cycle of their day.

With humans, the same cycle exists. If you've ever wanted to take a nap after lunch, you know this phenomenon firsthand. Eating makes you sleepy. But because we must work to enjoy other things such as central air conditioning, motorized transportation, and the vodka martini, this propensity to slack can be dangerous. Yet, it is hardwired into us.

Workaholics overcome slack through the use of a drug. It is the most popular drug in the world. It is so popular we even let children consume it. They even give it away free at work. That drug is caffeine.

Caffeine is a stimulant, and the popularity of coffee coincides perfectly with the industrial revolution. Factories found that workers produced more goods at less risk to safety when they were buzzed on caffeine instead of beer. By getting buzzed, workers found they were more alert and energetic as a result. I can personally attest to the almost magical effects of this substance.

I drink a lot of coffee. I am criticized for overdoing it. But to be honest, I don't drink enough of the stuff. If I don't drink coffee, I want to take a nap. I'm not kidding. I like to joke that my purpose in life is to turn caffeine into work.

My addiction makes sense considering that I am already naturally disposed towards slack. Even now, I'd like to go take a nap because I haven't put a pot on. That is after eight hours of sleep as well. I always want to sleep. It is by effort and java that I overcome this urge to do nothing.

Another factor in slack is the presence of lipids. Lipids are fats present in crap food like the Big Mac from McDonald's. If you eat heavy shit like this, you will want to sleep. That is because I believe that an excess number of calories triggers the brain to release serotonin just like it does in other animals. By eating light, you increase your energy levels. I must admit that this is advice I do not take myself. I think my life would improve remarkably if I were to do the Jared Fogle thing. People on diets report increased energy levels. This seems counterintuitive but not if you realize how animals evolved this way. Low calories increases energy. High calories decreases energy. If you fall into a severe deficit like in starvation or hypoglycemia, then your energy levels will drop but for the wrong reasons.

So, if you eat less and drink coffee, you can ramp up energy. Throw in a high degree of physical fitness, and you should be hitting on all eight cylinders. People who are in shape have a higher degree of energy than those not in shape. For instance, Ron Paul rides a bike, and I was suprised to learn that he was 71 years old. I figured him to be 61. Much of what people attribute to old age is really due to being out of shape. For instance, marathoner Ed Whitlock ran a sub-3 hour marathon at age 70. Considering that many twentysomethings and thirtysomethings could not duplicate this feat, it really goes to show that you can do more than you think you can.

The other aspect of slack is diversions like television, video games, and the internet. Unlike other animals, we crave intellectual stimulation. The fact that you are reading this is testament to this urge to goof off. When we do something we love, we experience what psychologist Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi calls "flow." It's like when an athlete gets into the zone when he goes on the playing field, or the way I feel now as I write this essay. You lose yourself in the experience, and I think it is the best experience you can have on this earth. Unfortunately, you can't always get paid for this flow experience, and sometimes you even pay to experience flow. My monthly cable/internet bill is testament to this.

If you have a job drilling holes into sheet metal all day or watching paint dry, you probably would rather be doing something more fun like a sudoku puzzle. Boredom is also an element in slack, and it produces the same sleepiness as a Thanksgiving dinner would. Workaholics despise boredom and are always looking for stimulating things to keep them occupied. What separates those people from the rest of the herd is they get paid to have their fun. This does not mean being a professional athlete. My dopehead cousin is amazingly lazy except when it comes to cleaning or refurbishing something or welding together pieces of metal for a project. Then, he becomes as devoted a workaholic as any person you will find in the corporate world. That is the power of Flow.

Flow and Slack are in constant battle with each other. But if you have a greater amount of Flow in your life as opposed to Slack, this is happiness. It could almost be reduced to a mathematical ratio of hours of productive activity to hours of sleeping. The thing is that watching television produces flow, but it doesn't count as productive activity. The only difference between work and play is that you get paid to work. When Tiger Woods plays golf, it is time well-spent. When I play golf, it is time wasted. Fortunately, I am not a golfer.

In conclusion, the way to battle slack is fourfold-- drink coffee, eat light, exercise, and get paid to do what you love. You should see a huge uptick in your productivity as a result.

Random Thoughts on Various Subjects


Dr. Paul is kicking ass in polls and on the internet. So, why doesn't he get more press?

The mainstream media is beholden to mainstream candidates. They are more ready to fawn over the undeclareds like Fred Thompson and Al Gore than they will over a person of substance like Ron Paul.

I can't wait for the next GOP debate.


This bitch needs to OD and die. Christ.


Got sold out by the Democrats and hung up the crusade. Aside from Ron Paul, there isn't a person in DC with the balls to oppose this war. Everyone agrees that the war is a clusterfuck, but no one will go on record to be against it or vote to end it. Sad sad shit when you consider that 70% of the American public agree that Iraq was a mistake.

4. TB

The Andrew Speaker case is a strange one. The bottom line is that the fucker had a drug resistant case of TB. He knew it. And he spread it not giving a fuck about the harm to others. I'm sorry, but that makes the guy a grade-A dick in my book.

Some in the libertarian community may disagree, but I think a disease like Speaker has is a threat to others. I know he didn't ask for it, but it doesn't matter. I just know what I would do in his situation. I would protect others by turning myself in to the proper authorities. Life is a bitch, but that's the way it is.

Thanks to Mr. Speakers lack of ethics in this matter, a whole lot of other people are afraid right now because they might have the same shit Speaker has. There ought to be a law against this sort of thing.


People are seeing Venezuela's Hugo Chavez for what he really is--a communist dictator who will violate people's freedoms.

The Left esp. in the USA secretly admires Chavez, and they root for him. These people are idiots. Communism and socialism are failures, but these shit-for-brains cocksuckers can't be troubled with the facts. And if you dare to disagree, Chavez will shut you down.

Leftists champion free speech--their free speech. But once they get in power, they do not hesitate to silence opponents. Chavez has already done this. Trust me, folks, this is the tip of the iceberg. Chavez will be putting people in prison and doing all sorts of other bullshit before long. You can count on it.


This week's award goes to Danny Glover for having his lips pressed firmly to the ass of Hugo Chavez. Glover praises Chavez. How can this fool say he is a champion of human rights? Danny Glover is a shithead.



The middle name of President Harry Truman was just the letter 'S.'



Jack Kevorkian left prison today after eight years of incarceration. He is a hero.

Religious fuckheads believing they know the will of Almighty God will excoriate Kevorkian for his "crimes." But his only crime is assisting people in a decision they made to die a painless death. As a libertarian, I believe people have the right to die. It is right to do with your own body as you wish, and if your own body does not belong to you, then nothing does. The Religious Right and other such busybodies need to learn to mind their own goddamn business.

What was done to Jack Kevorkian was an injustice. The man never hurt anybody. He didn't deserve this.