The Scorpion and the Frog

The story of the scorpion and the frog is one of my favorites. For those who don't know the story, there was a frog sitting by the bank of a stream when a scorpion happens along and asks the frog for a ride on his back in order to cross the stream. The frog is reluctant to do this because the scorpion will sting him. The scorpion assures him that stinging the frog would not be in his self-interest since he wants to get across the stream and stinging him would drown both of them. The frog agrees with this logic and consents to giving the scorpion a ride. Halfway across, the scorpion stings the frog, and they both start drowning. The frog asks the scorpion why he did something so stupid. The scorpion replies, "It is my nature."

I see this story acted out every day. I have personally been the frog in many such tales. For whatever reason, there are people out there who think you are a complete sucker for caring about them. So, they burn their relationship with you for the sake of some momentary gain that completely fucks them in the long run. In short, they say, "You are an idiot for loving me." And they are correct. And what is so tragic is that they express surprise and dismay when people either don't care about them or even elect to try and use them.

I've been trying to get back to the Alma Jean story, but it really is the story of the frog and the scorpion. As complicated as it is, the bottom line is that it is the tale of three scorpions, and the frogs they have stung.

I am reluctant to help people. The only people I will ever help are the ones I know and trust. I go through a great deal of trouble to maintain the relationships I have. I give in order to get. This may be selfish, but I think it is the heart of the golden rule. I treat others as I want to be treated. I love those who love me. I don't waste my love on those who don't love me.

I have had a painful week ending a scorpion/frog type relationship. I am also going to end another one which will be much easier considering that scorpion is sitting in jail. Both people prey on the compassion of others. They play the victim card, and then they cash in the love you give them.

This leads us to a question. How do you distinguish between fellow frogs and scorpions? This is the fundamental question behind every job interview, business deal, or dating relationship. I don't have an easy answer for this one. The fact is that betrayal is a fact of life, and a person must appear to be your friend before they can stab you in the back. The reality is that everyone you love could be the one to fuck you over.

The flip side of this is to never enter into any type of relationship. This is part of the reason why I will never marry. The potential cost outweighs the benefits. You would be better off spending all that cash on a lifetime of hookers simply to avoid the shattered emotions that come from a divorce. Plus, I can tell you from experience that women are more prone to betrayal than men. That is because women are vindictive and weak. They must use opportunity to their advantage which is why they will fuck you at any moment with no prior warning. That's because they seize the opportunity when it presents itself.

I despise this nastiness. But it is the way things are. It makes more sense to play nice with people, but some folks can't do otherwise. It is simply their nature.

Message to Mark Martin: "Shit or Get Off the Pot"

I am getting fed up watching interviews with NASCAR driver Mark Martin. The man can't make up his mind about whether or not to keep driving Nextel Cup. He says he will retire. Then, he says he won't. Then, he says he might "semi-retire." WTF?!

I'm not a big believer in retirement. But in sports, it is something that has to be faced and accepted. I don't think Mark Martin is too old to race. Stock car racing is far more forgiving to maturity than something like tennis. I think if Dale Earnhardt had lived he would still be on the track today at 50+ years. And I think he would be as competitive as ever.

It won't bother me a bit if Martin decides to hang it up, but the man needs to make up his fucking mind and live with the consequences. I don't see how doublemindedness helps anybody.

The Strait Jacket

My ambitions exceed my present resources. When this occurs, I feel constrained as if I am trapped in a strait jacket, and I am trying to punch my way out. It gets on my nerves. It is a restless feeling coupled with frustration. The upside is that it motivates me to accomplish goals which are replaced by other goals which leads to the strait jacket feeling again. In short, I am never satisfied.

Basically, I don't have enough time, money, or energy to do all the things I want to do. I keep lists of projects, but there are always challenges that come up when I try to accomplish them. For instance, I work a lot to produce free cash flow to put into a weekend project. But then, I don't have the energy to pull it off because I am exhausted from working so much. By the time I am rested up, I am out of time. Or I get distracted on side issues usually involving family and friends.

If there is one resource I value the most, it would be time. I can always expand my money supply or even my supply of energy. But time is time. I still have the same 24 as everyone else. No amount of effort on my part will give me a greater supply of time. So, I try and make the most of the time I have.

This was an issue for Leonardo and Edison. Both took catnaps in an effort to expand their time. I could take over the world if I didn't have to sleep ever again.

In terms of energy, I can also appreciate why MLB players use performance enhancing drugs esp. amphetamines. They have a grueling schedule, so that boost makes a huge difference. I limit myself to caffeine, but I can see the temptation in taking uppers in order to get more done. As it stands, I just accept the fact that I am always going to fall asleep during movies or gatherings. This is the price of chronic sleep deprivation.

So, what have I accomplished with all this work? Not much at all.